Hi Everyone!
Well, it has been a while! Things haven't been too exciting for me around here; a lot of work and sleep. I'll try to give you a not boring run down here.
So, the play has started. I got through auditions relatively unscathed; there was a supposed internet fight over who I cast, but I only heard about it third hand, so I'm pretending it didn't happen. I have had three rehearsals, and I think they went alright. So far, I haven't had to do anything horrible like throw someone out. I'm being kind of spazztic with blocking and whatnot, because my set design changed about halfway through, but we're getting there.
Classes have been so-so. I feel like I've been fighting with myself a lot; my drama classes are a little painful right now. Drama 2 is reading through the Cherry Orchard (I can't believe we choose that play!) and half of the class just sits there while we go through, though no fault of their own. It's just really frustrating. Drama 1 just finished Improv; the kids seem to think that running around and screaming is improv. That was painful. There were a few kids that were good, and some really hilarious skits, but for the most part, it was pretty hard to watch. We're moving on to monologues next; here's hoping they are better for the kids.
Like I said before, I feel like I'm fighting with myself a lot. I thought I had really good classroom management last year; this year, I feel like my technique just isn't working. I'm very rarely happy when I come home now. I'm not necessarily mad or upset, but I am not enjoying teaching right at this moment. I hope it will pass. I started with Research papers, and those are always a rough subject to work with. I'm stressed, and I am not getting enough exercise (I'm still trying to join my gym; they keep closing early!) Still, it would be nice to be genuinely excited about my job once in a while. I just can't find something I love about it yet. The people are wonderful (Muller stayed after school and talked to me today for an extra two hours, just helping me talk through my difficulties) and I really want to like the kids, but those two things together aren't enough. I feel like I'm drifting, without a purpose. Tomorrow, we have an inservice day, and then I am taking Monday off to come home from Pittsburgh, so I have some time to help myself refresh and work though some new ideas. I'm going to try to revamp my style and get in touch with my inner bitch. It might seem weird, but I think putting my foot down and doing things *my* way will help. I've been a little tentative in what I do, a little too passive, I think, and the students are definitely taking advantage. On the plus side, I know that my principals have got my back, which I never really felt at the old job.
Speaking of the old job: My exlandlord called me last week and told me that they were hiring, and told me that I might want to "get in on the ground floor of that." Because then, "you won't have to deal with the rent issue!" (I still owe him for one more month). Never mind the massive amounts of money, time, and effort I put into this new place, the contract with my current job, or the rent I would owe here. Just so long as he doesn't loose any money! I was not a happy camper that night, but I laugh about it now. For the most part.
I looked into getting a dog this weekend. I really want a Yorkie, so I was looking up Yorkie rescues. Unfortunatly, most need another dog or a human presence all day, or they are $300 or more. I've decided to look for more breeds. I need something small, <25 pounds. I was also looking at pugs, but I couldn't find prices for them, and sometimes I think they are cute and sometimes I think they are ugly. I think I'll widen my search.
On the plus side of today: My drama 2 kids baked me cookies! We were talking about this weekend, and I mentioned the wedding and the drive and my birthday, and they remembered! They signed a card for me and brought in chocolate chip cookies. Wheee! It absolutely made my day. Third period (stage tech) ruined the feeling, but for a moment there I was touched. :)
So, tonight I bought comfort food (chinese), comfort coke (for rum) and watched "Eureka." I finished the second season of Dexter last night, but I can't instant netflix any other seasons. I read the wikis on them, and now I don't care to watch any more. I also finished Arrested Development (really stupid ending, I'm sad to say), so I am in the market for new netflix TV series to become addicted to. I'm going to start Chuck soon, I guess, to make Rachel happy.
The other bright spots in my life:
BY THIS TIME TOMORROW I'LL BE ON MY WAY HOME.
Project Runway is on tonight.
Tomorrow is INSERVICE.
LOVE! -B
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